Innocent

"Deborah, you're so innocent."

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What in the world does the word innocent means?

Innocent:
n.
1.A person, especially a child, who is free of guilt and sin [uh, we have sin except Jesus so not it]
2.A simple, unsophisticated, guileless, inexperienced person [ gee, that sounds a bit like me]
3. A very young child [Well, I'm legally an adult, so no]
4.A person with little experience in the world, especially in sexual, evil and unpleasant manners [ok Urban dictionary definition, Lo entiendo]

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Yep, back to square one.

But by all means, this comment has popped up several times, mainly from my times at high school rather than my one semester at UC Berkeley. (Irony) Honestly, I felt that no one can be called innocent because to be innocent means to have no sin, which only fits one person: Jesus Christ. Of course, I knew that was not the comment most people were referring to. I thought the comment stemmed off my dislike for not cursing, talking about sexual jokes and refraining from pleasurable activities that made me uncomfortable in a moral and health conscious standpoint. At first, I felt the comment "You're so innocent" was proof that there was a barrier between the people I meet and know, so I thought about tearing it down. That went down a path I regret taking, mainly because I realize that the people labeling me as innocent were the ones that I should not impress because they did not care about me. I should not impress anyone nor change for anyone who deems me worthy based on what I do.

Reasons why I choose to not curse is because the words I say reflect my heart. I do say negative things, but I don't want to go down a deep path of self pity and bitterness that drives the ones who do care about me away. I admit I do curse from time to time, but I feel it's because I get easily influence by my environment. Sigh, the UCB Meme page is not the way to go.
As for the sexual jokes or weed jokes, there's more to life than making remarks on being high or having a hookup. I did not know about the terminology surrounding the hookup culture until I realize the people around me were part of it. "I just want to eat you, "He's so hot," I want to swing from her chest."-Just stop. Please just stop because this kind of comments are feeding back into treating people as objects for appetite. Besides, no one always knows that there be a person hurt by sexual assault.

"They're trying to see if they can break your innocence."a friend told me
Sigh, I feel I want to break away from this world into one where everyone is valued. Longing for heaven.