Honestly, I never imagined the moment that I will walk on the stage and see my classmates draped in their capes and gowns. I have pushed aside that thought for many years, but it is creeping it on me and everyone else.
Ironically at this point, I still don't know which college I'm going to in the end because I am still waiting for my wait listed universities. I would say that for now, I got into UC Davis last Friday. Once I learned the news, I was screaming over all the place because I was so happy. However, my parents want me to wait to see if I have other offers. We'll see.
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| By the way, did I ever mention Gracie gave birth to six kittens on April 15, 2016 (well we had to bury the firstborn Thomas, but the five are doing well. Their names from left to right are Sophie, Benjamin, Rebecca, Jeremiah, and Sarah) |
I then realized that this my last time in high school.
This may be my last time I get to see my classmates.
This may be the last time I get to have six periods per day with required attendance.
This may be the last time I get to walk in the corridors among the crowd of students.
This may be the last time I get to hang out with my teachers and friends on campus, knowing that I would not have to worry about time conflicts (especially if I have them in my class next to me).
Maybe because I have such little time, I started to hang out with my friends more and really get to know them well. In fact, today I spent two hours at a friend's home and another walking and talking with another friend of mine for an hour.
Maybe because I know I'm not always going to see my family everyday, I'm spending more time with them, such as going on long leisure walks with them and listening to their life stories (and complaints).
Maybe because I am sick of schoolwork, I am not focusing on my homework (which is getting easier by the day except for those Physics labs). Hey, I have been taking double math, double literature, double science classes this year while four of them are AP classes. I'm almost done with AP exams. I only have AP Statistics left, which is today!
But let me be serious here. I feel at this point of time, I need to focus on enjoying the time I have right now instead of regretting my mistakes or worrying about the future.
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Today has enough trouble of its own. "-Matthew 6:3
Yes, it's from the Bible, and yes, I'm going to say something optimistic here. There is so much uncertainty lying ahead in the future that it's unnerving. I believe that at some points in our lives that most of us believe that things will get worse, and it's difficult to see the hope in amidst of the darkness that suffocates us. However, we tenacious humans still cling on to the lingering hope that life will get better if we just keeping holding on. Just never let go of that hope. If you do desperately want to, know that your family, friends, God, strangers, cats, anyone will help you. Never feel hopeless.
Okay, enough pep talk from me (I think this is pep talk, right?) I should be going to sleep no later than 1:00am. Hehehehehe.
As for what the school year has in stored, this is what I can say...(the dates are tentative, but you don't really need to know unless you're stalking me for some troll reason...)
One Tea Milk Tea MSJ Garden outing: May 14
Movies: May 15
Ashland, Oregon Field Trip for the Shakespeare Festival: May 18-20
Senior Prom: May 28
Fanime (hopefully I'll go): May 28-30
Graduation Ceremony: June 8
Drivers Test: June 9
Disneyland Field Trip: June 10-12
As for those who read this far, thank you and go to bed with a snugly blanket.
You should listen to this song from Anohana: The Flower that We Saw that Day
Secret Base-10 years After
